Roller-coaster Year!!!

well today is December 31, 2011....a few hours to go its already 2012..

This year is a roller coaster for me, all the emotions that i have to feel, i felt this year

all up's and down's...tragic moments that still fresh in my mind and in my heart,

i don't know if i can say that this years is good because of my experiences(my brothers lost

and one of my closest friends lost). But if i look into the bright side, i can say that this year is

"balance"(only if look on the bright side)...well apart of i have found the "person" that can

take away all the pain that I had for so many years(cheesy!!)...well there's a lot of good things

that i learned and experienced, but all in all this year was a roller-coaster ride.

Before i forgot,well as usual, I would like to thank the people who became a BIG part of my life

this year 2011

FIRST, my parents as i always said, thank you for everything for the love, the strength, caring and keep on believing in me. I Love You so much!!!

For my sisters!

Ate Mavie: thanks for everything as in "WAGAS" na everything!! i owe you so MUCH!!!

Ate Mariz: thank you sa lahat sa pagtatanggol sa lahat basta alm mo na yun! Muwwaaahhuuggss!!

Ate Love: if you're reading this, thank you sa lahat, even though hindi tayo nagpapansinan.. I'm Sorry. i don't have the strength to tell you face to face, but I'm sorry...thank you!^_^

Ate Aga: thank you kasi ikaw lng sumusuporta sakin pagdating kay Yuri!! hahaha...well thank you don't worry...i'll never forget everything you did for me lalo na yung scramble egg na luto mo..hahaha!!!

Ate Cess: Thanks for everything, kahit sobrang kuripot mo eh(hahahaah)..i know naman kung bakit..dami kong natutunan sayo!!!^_^

I Love my Ate's!! they are the Best Ate's in the WHOLE WORLD!!!

to my Kuya: (i don't want to shed tears)...well i know you were alaways there for us, you're our Guardian Angel now...we love you so much!!!^_^

To my Friends:

Andeng: even na may nangyaring hindi pagkakaunwaan eh...were still friends...kasi sabi nga sa kanta "we've known each other since we were 11 or 12"(iniba ko ung age...hahaha)..ibg sabihin our friendship won't break kasi we know how to deal our problems..and I'am thankful for

always being there for me(kahit busy ka na at isa ka ng successful MANAGER)...thank you!

Ben: wag na may CAREN ka na eh!!!hahaha. thank you kasi isa ka sa nagtyatyagang pakinggan lahat ng problema ko..sorry if i have doubts at you sometimes..hindi mo maiiwasan yun..kasi ikaw eh..hahaha...pero seriously thank you for everything!!!^_^

Kael: Be happy always!! stay happy, i know how you feel..pero life must goes on!!! sabi nga eh live life to the fullest!^_^ enjoy everyday of your life, don't take it seriously!^_^ thank you!!

Ian: wag na may "P" ka na eh...hahaha..thank you as my tutor sa math(kaw na magaling sa Algebra, Trigo, Analytic Geom, Plane Solid..lahat na ng math) thank you sa lahat you've been a great friend not just to me but for everyone! tama na chix ha..focus more on studies!! family first before...you know what i mean..hahaha...thank you!!

Lulu: oh tawa na naman!!! well you're the only person na kaya kong iexpress ang sarili ko...and im so thankful for that, kahit na pinagkakamalan na may relasyon tayo...at malabo mangyari yun kasi you're my other sister..hahaha...tahnk you for always making me laugh na kahit naiyak na ako sa harapan mo eh..you're laughing at me...sobrang optomistic mo...na minsan naisip ko it will lead you to autism....hahaha...basta im so blessed na God gave me a person like you! kahit na minsan lang tau mag usap ngayon dahil kay Ilcy eh..im so thankful kasi you were always there for me!!^_^

Khay: i love you khay!! you know that ikaw na ang guardian angel ng tropa....guide as always! we miss you and love you so much!!!^_^

Stan and Rap: stan thank you sa lahat ha..even na hindi tau nagkikita eh...thank you for giving me advice and everything..stay happy..alagaan mo yung GF mo..baka mauntog matauhan..sayang..bilihan mo ng helmet ha!!!hahaha...

rap; salamats a lahat ng panglalait at pangaalipusta sakin...hahaha...no joke...hahahaha...thank you sa lahat....basta this 2012 ako na manlilibre sau, grabe talaga hiya ko sau nung nilibre mo ko...hindi ako sanay ng nililibre talaga...basta this 2012 ako na manlilibre....

Iya, Mak, Raquel: guys alm nio na kung gano ako ka-grateful na naging kaibigan ko kayo...

i love you so much!!!!^_^...basta tahnk you for everything...hopefully magkita-kita na talaga!

To My Choir Family:

Thank you po sa lahat for believing in my talents, and for trusting me to sing a solo part...

sobrang thank you po for always guiding me/us, teaching me/us and for the advices!!! thank you po. from the bottom of my Hypothalamus!^_^

Thank you po sa mga magagandang ate ng choir (Ate Ruby, Ate Che, Ate Donna, Ate Cha, Ate Nora, Ate Grace, Ate Car, Ate Julie, Ate Juliet and Ate Ohree)^_^

at sa mga Guwapong mga Kuya ng choir( Kuya Royce, Kuya Marlon, Kuya Ed, Kuya Jep, Kuya Edwin M., Sir Dwight, Kuya JR) thank you ;po sa inyong lahat!!!

And sa lahat ng taong naging part ng buhay ko this 2011 thank you sa inyong lahat!!!

I learned a lot this year! I can tell that this year it made me a strong person!!!

this year I'll try...(i'll try ha)...to become a better person!!

ayaw kong gumawa ng new years resolution....basta I'll do my best to become a better Son, Brother, Friend.

Thank You po sa inyong lahat!!!!

xoxox

Friend or Foe?

my life is like a box of chocolates, full of surprises..but most of them are not good surprises....

5 years ago, I'm afraid to trust people because of some particular situation that happened to me..

i'm not the one who will tell you whats lurking on my mind, what was hurting me and other stuff....

and i changed..totally changed...by the help of my family and "FRIENDS"...i learned when to trust and when not to trust.....

its hard for me to trust other people because they might tell to others what i told to them...so i pick only those who i think that i can trust...and i did....but i found something.....i found something really really bad.....one of my trusted friends betrayed me........

that friend of mine is my friend since i was 12 years old, right now i'm 23 years old.....(count the years, do the math..)

i trusted him in every situation of my life i always telling him whats happening to me or whats bothering me....i trusted him so much to the point that i can tell everything without any doubt....but i failed.....5 years ago when im on the situation that i need a friend....he's there...i told him whats happening.....i trusted him my secrets.....but he dissapoints me..because he was the one who told everyone whats happening to me,,,i confront him i told him " kapag ikaw nagsasabi sakin na wag kong ipagsasabi ginagawa ko, kapag kailanagn mo ng magpapalam sa mama mo para payagan ka at wag kong sabihin ang totoo, ginagawa ko, pero bakit ako alm mo na masasaktan ako kasi sobrang halaga niya sakin, tapos ipinagkalat mo, bakit? and he replied " eh sa yun ang gusto ko eh! wag ka ngang umiyak ang babaw mo!"...............thats's the reply of a friend that i trusted with al my heart...then i did'nt talk to him....and he confronts me, he said sorry and i forgave him because he is my friend....and i treasure it.......but the friendship has a crack.....

and now he is doing it again, i found out that he tells everone, everything about me, ang baba pala ng tingin niya sa akin....and hndi ko alam yun, he told them that im insecure with him, but honestly not, im really happy for what he had now, and all success in his life because i feel im also part of his success because im his friend....and there's no way to feel insecure because i can be succesful in my own way.......he told them silly things, that below the belt...and i am so offended with that....with all the people i know i never thought that he was going to do that, that he will betray and insult me like that, when we see each other were ok...but the truth behind those smiles,,is a person who wants to take you down......

you know what..i hate you! for being not so true, for being arrogant! i trusted you, you've did it to me once, and then you repeat it again.....sorry if i did something wrong, you know you can tell it to me and im open for correcting myself if im not doing any good.....but you didn't,, you just throw my trust from you.............and right now........evrything will be change.......sorry but you're not my friend anymore......sorry...because it hurts me so bad.........sorry because i cannot trust you anymore and sorry for hating you so much!!!!!

Anger Management!

again im here in my blog releasing what are my thoughts and feelings!!!

i hate people na yung ayaw gawin sa kanila eh ginagawa nila sa iba!

so stupid!! matalino ba talaga tong tao na to..ewan ko ba....gusto ko lang talaga ilabas ang sama ng loob ko!!

one thing i know....all she cares about is herself, and she doesn't even think kung maganda ba yung ginagawa nya o hindi...kung nakakatapak na ba sya ng kapwa nya o hindi......and one thing for sure!!!she's so plastic!!!!

dito ko na lang inilalabas, kaysa sa magaway pa...dito ko na lang sya aawayin kasi after nito marerealize ko na lang na hayan na lang sya sa ginagawa niya....sabi nga pag pumatol ka sa baliw, baliw ka na rin....

thread.....

thread...

thread..

thread....

what is it a thread for me???

i have a friend...not just a friend she's almost a sister for me...

since we've begin to be close friends she was always there for me and im always there for her..

she is the one i always run to whenever i need a serious conversation about my problems...

why am i saying this?? because one of the thread in my life is gone...already cut by the faith....

and that thread is her.....i feel the same pain when my brother died 4 months ago...

i miss her so much...every time i think of her i always remember, she always told me that if im going to make a decision i should think not just twice but 100 times! that everything happens in our lives has a purpose...

whenever i feel so disturb she was always there to hear my pains, lahat na yata ng kababawan sa buhay ko alam niya....that's why i miss her so much... until now i cannot believe that this is happening, that she was gone and cant even see her or hear her advices.....i miss her so much... i miss everything in her....

khay, i know kahit na you cant give me advices anymore, i know you will guide me and lead me in the right way...you're one of the angels na...i will miss you so much...and you're in my heart forever...i love you my younger sister!!

another year!!!

1 year n ang nakalipas simula ng nag-post ako sa blog na to...

another year so it means another chapter n nmn ng life ko......

masaya ako kasi lahat ng bagay na mali na nakasanayan ko eh nabago ko na....

heheheh(alm nio na un)

sobrang saya kasi naging maayos ang year 2010 sakin hopefully this 2011 is much better sa 2010

i wanna say thank you sa mga naging part ng life ko nung 2010.

Thank you sa Family ko na lalo kong naramdaman ang pagmamahal nila,

sa nanay at sa tatay ko...

sa mga charming at beautiful kong mga ate:

ate mab: thank you for me giving me a chance..^_^

ate mariz: thank you sa pagtatanggol mo sakin...kahit malayo ka eh dinadaan mo sa post ang

pagtatanggol mo sakin..^_^

ate love: thank you sa pagturo sakin, dahil sayo eh ang taas ng grade ko sa intensive english..hehe^_^

ate aga: thank you kasi..kpag tinatamad akong magluto ng pagkain eh, pinagluluto mo ko..(un lng my kapalit na 1.5 na coke)..heheh^_^

ate cess: thanks sa mga binigay mo...hehehe^_^

and sa nagiisang kuya ko: thank you dahil sa wakas my havainas na ulit ako...hahahaha...

sa 2nd Family ko; ang choir

thank you po kasi solid talaga ang samahan...

thank you kay ate rubi...sobrang thank you po.^_^

sa lahat ng ate ko sa choir(ate che, ate donna, ate cha, ate nora, ate grace, ate maricar, ate ohree and ate julie) thank you po..^_^

sa lahat ng kuya..(kuya edwin G., kuya marlon, kuya royce, kuya jeff, kuya edwin M., kuya rey, kuya j.r and sir dwight) thanks po...

sana po eh lalo pang maging masaya at buo po ang choir.^_^

sa mga friends ko...A-Ba-Do-O-Pi-Lu-Pe

masasabi ko lng n kahit pito lang tau eh...nagkakaunawaan tau..hahha

at sobrang masaya..minsan mas konti mas masaya talaga..hahaha

kay john ruiz(pope)..salamat ha!^_^

sa mga pinsan ko...haha...sobrang saya ng summer ko ng 2010 dahil sa inyo..^_^

kay iya, marck at raquel, kahit na hindi natuloy ung reunion natin eh....maraming salamat..marami pa nmn pgkakataon....sana malapit na yun..hehe

sa mga kaklase ko...hahaha

naging makabuluhan ang pagpasok sa araw-araw dahil sa pakikisama niyo...

kay niel, julius, lance, tom, eris, xtian, ronald, chuck,...cno pa ba..basta lhat kau!!!marming salamat sa lhat!!

napasalmatan ko na lahat..dun sa mga di ko nabanngit eh....sorry kung naklimutan ko...pero maraming maraming salamat

sana this 2011 maraming magagandang bagay pa ang mangyari!!!^_^

Thank You Very Much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

God gave me another year it means my mission is still not accomplish
and with this new life..everything is about to change..^_^..
and im choosing to be better..^^

i wanna say thank you sa lahat ng tao na bumati sakin nung birthday ko...
thank you kasi kahit sa simpleng happy birthday lang ay sobra niyo kong napasaya..^^

thank you sa family ko kc 1st tym kong nag birthday ng kasama ko ang family ko ng buong araw,
masarap sa pakiramdam.. sa parents ko at sa 6 kong kapatid..^^

kay iya and marck...kahit hindi kayo pumunta ok lang...
natutuwa ako na nagkakaroon na tayo ng connections ulit..

sa mga friends ko na pumunta..
thank you kahit may mga ginagawa kayo eh nag-effort kayo pumunta sa house...^_^

sa choir family ko maraming salamat po sa inyong lahat..
kay0 na po ang second family ko..^^

sa mga kapatid ko sa diocese maraming maraming salamat sa pagbati..
kahit di ko kayo naimbitihan eh babawi na lang ako sa susunod..
thanks kasi naging part kayo ng life ko..^^

sa mga classmates ko nung elementary, high school at college..thank you so much..
sobra akong natuwa sa mga messages niyo..^^

THANK YOU VERY MUCH!!!

(ate sexy thank you sa gift ha!!)

Hahahaha and huhuhu...is the sound that you’ll hear when there’s a group of people gathering in one place...

People chipping in stories what happened in past few days or the day before they get to see each other..

Sharing what’s in their mind and in their heart...sometimes they talk about the one they adore, their crushes and the people who got captivated their eyes...

Sometimes they talk about their enemies... most likely the one that they don’t like...

Laughing about what happened to them...and sharing the most funniest thing that they experienced..

A few times...they were sharing the saddest part of their life...someone is giving an advice and someone is wiping your tears when you’re about to shed tears...giving you a shoulder to lean on and give’s you strength to hold on...


That group of people are called FRIENDS...

There are friends...Who’s always there for you no matter what...The one you can depend on..And no matter who you are...where you from...what mistakes you did...they were always there for you..

But some of the friends that you’ll meet are not as good as we thought...there are friends who only knows you if they need you...there are friends..Who will use you for the sake of their goodness...and some friends treat you nice...only if you done something good for them...

For me...I’ve got bunch of friends...but not all of them are bona fide friends...and now this chapter of my life...I hope I won’t meet pretentious people to become my friend...and if I meet one...I know what to do...

This is for all my friends......whether you’re real or not......you’ll recognize where you belong...

See yah when i see yah
xoxo!