Roller-coaster Year!!!

well today is December 31, 2011....a few hours to go its already 2012..

This year is a roller coaster for me, all the emotions that i have to feel, i felt this year

all up's and down's...tragic moments that still fresh in my mind and in my heart,

i don't know if i can say that this years is good because of my experiences(my brothers lost

and one of my closest friends lost). But if i look into the bright side, i can say that this year is

"balance"(only if look on the bright side)...well apart of i have found the "person" that can

take away all the pain that I had for so many years(cheesy!!)...well there's a lot of good things

that i learned and experienced, but all in all this year was a roller-coaster ride.

Before i forgot,well as usual, I would like to thank the people who became a BIG part of my life

this year 2011

FIRST, my parents as i always said, thank you for everything for the love, the strength, caring and keep on believing in me. I Love You so much!!!

For my sisters!

Ate Mavie: thanks for everything as in "WAGAS" na everything!! i owe you so MUCH!!!

Ate Mariz: thank you sa lahat sa pagtatanggol sa lahat basta alm mo na yun! Muwwaaahhuuggss!!

Ate Love: if you're reading this, thank you sa lahat, even though hindi tayo nagpapansinan.. I'm Sorry. i don't have the strength to tell you face to face, but I'm sorry...thank you!^_^

Ate Aga: thank you kasi ikaw lng sumusuporta sakin pagdating kay Yuri!! hahaha...well thank you don't worry...i'll never forget everything you did for me lalo na yung scramble egg na luto mo..hahaha!!!

Ate Cess: Thanks for everything, kahit sobrang kuripot mo eh(hahahaah)..i know naman kung bakit..dami kong natutunan sayo!!!^_^

I Love my Ate's!! they are the Best Ate's in the WHOLE WORLD!!!

to my Kuya: (i don't want to shed tears)...well i know you were alaways there for us, you're our Guardian Angel now...we love you so much!!!^_^

To my Friends:

Andeng: even na may nangyaring hindi pagkakaunwaan eh...were still friends...kasi sabi nga sa kanta "we've known each other since we were 11 or 12"(iniba ko ung age...hahaha)..ibg sabihin our friendship won't break kasi we know how to deal our problems..and I'am thankful for

always being there for me(kahit busy ka na at isa ka ng successful MANAGER)...thank you!

Ben: wag na may CAREN ka na eh!!!hahaha. thank you kasi isa ka sa nagtyatyagang pakinggan lahat ng problema ko..sorry if i have doubts at you sometimes..hindi mo maiiwasan yun..kasi ikaw eh..hahaha...pero seriously thank you for everything!!!^_^

Kael: Be happy always!! stay happy, i know how you feel..pero life must goes on!!! sabi nga eh live life to the fullest!^_^ enjoy everyday of your life, don't take it seriously!^_^ thank you!!

Ian: wag na may "P" ka na eh...hahaha..thank you as my tutor sa math(kaw na magaling sa Algebra, Trigo, Analytic Geom, Plane Solid..lahat na ng math) thank you sa lahat you've been a great friend not just to me but for everyone! tama na chix ha..focus more on studies!! family first before...you know what i mean..hahaha...thank you!!

Lulu: oh tawa na naman!!! well you're the only person na kaya kong iexpress ang sarili ko...and im so thankful for that, kahit na pinagkakamalan na may relasyon tayo...at malabo mangyari yun kasi you're my other sister..hahaha...tahnk you for always making me laugh na kahit naiyak na ako sa harapan mo eh..you're laughing at me...sobrang optomistic mo...na minsan naisip ko it will lead you to autism....hahaha...basta im so blessed na God gave me a person like you! kahit na minsan lang tau mag usap ngayon dahil kay Ilcy eh..im so thankful kasi you were always there for me!!^_^

Khay: i love you khay!! you know that ikaw na ang guardian angel ng tropa....guide as always! we miss you and love you so much!!!^_^

Stan and Rap: stan thank you sa lahat ha..even na hindi tau nagkikita eh...thank you for giving me advice and everything..stay happy..alagaan mo yung GF mo..baka mauntog matauhan..sayang..bilihan mo ng helmet ha!!!hahaha...

rap; salamats a lahat ng panglalait at pangaalipusta sakin...hahaha...no joke...hahahaha...thank you sa lahat....basta this 2012 ako na manlilibre sau, grabe talaga hiya ko sau nung nilibre mo ko...hindi ako sanay ng nililibre talaga...basta this 2012 ako na manlilibre....

Iya, Mak, Raquel: guys alm nio na kung gano ako ka-grateful na naging kaibigan ko kayo...

i love you so much!!!!^_^...basta tahnk you for everything...hopefully magkita-kita na talaga!

To My Choir Family:

Thank you po sa lahat for believing in my talents, and for trusting me to sing a solo part...

sobrang thank you po for always guiding me/us, teaching me/us and for the advices!!! thank you po. from the bottom of my Hypothalamus!^_^

Thank you po sa mga magagandang ate ng choir (Ate Ruby, Ate Che, Ate Donna, Ate Cha, Ate Nora, Ate Grace, Ate Car, Ate Julie, Ate Juliet and Ate Ohree)^_^

at sa mga Guwapong mga Kuya ng choir( Kuya Royce, Kuya Marlon, Kuya Ed, Kuya Jep, Kuya Edwin M., Sir Dwight, Kuya JR) thank you ;po sa inyong lahat!!!

And sa lahat ng taong naging part ng buhay ko this 2011 thank you sa inyong lahat!!!

I learned a lot this year! I can tell that this year it made me a strong person!!!

this year I'll try...(i'll try ha)...to become a better person!!

ayaw kong gumawa ng new years resolution....basta I'll do my best to become a better Son, Brother, Friend.

Thank You po sa inyong lahat!!!!

xoxox

Friend or Foe?

my life is like a box of chocolates, full of surprises..but most of them are not good surprises....

5 years ago, I'm afraid to trust people because of some particular situation that happened to me..

i'm not the one who will tell you whats lurking on my mind, what was hurting me and other stuff....

and i changed..totally changed...by the help of my family and "FRIENDS"...i learned when to trust and when not to trust.....

its hard for me to trust other people because they might tell to others what i told to them...so i pick only those who i think that i can trust...and i did....but i found something.....i found something really really bad.....one of my trusted friends betrayed me........

that friend of mine is my friend since i was 12 years old, right now i'm 23 years old.....(count the years, do the math..)

i trusted him in every situation of my life i always telling him whats happening to me or whats bothering me....i trusted him so much to the point that i can tell everything without any doubt....but i failed.....5 years ago when im on the situation that i need a friend....he's there...i told him whats happening.....i trusted him my secrets.....but he dissapoints me..because he was the one who told everyone whats happening to me,,,i confront him i told him " kapag ikaw nagsasabi sakin na wag kong ipagsasabi ginagawa ko, kapag kailanagn mo ng magpapalam sa mama mo para payagan ka at wag kong sabihin ang totoo, ginagawa ko, pero bakit ako alm mo na masasaktan ako kasi sobrang halaga niya sakin, tapos ipinagkalat mo, bakit? and he replied " eh sa yun ang gusto ko eh! wag ka ngang umiyak ang babaw mo!"...............thats's the reply of a friend that i trusted with al my heart...then i did'nt talk to him....and he confronts me, he said sorry and i forgave him because he is my friend....and i treasure it.......but the friendship has a crack.....

and now he is doing it again, i found out that he tells everone, everything about me, ang baba pala ng tingin niya sa akin....and hndi ko alam yun, he told them that im insecure with him, but honestly not, im really happy for what he had now, and all success in his life because i feel im also part of his success because im his friend....and there's no way to feel insecure because i can be succesful in my own way.......he told them silly things, that below the belt...and i am so offended with that....with all the people i know i never thought that he was going to do that, that he will betray and insult me like that, when we see each other were ok...but the truth behind those smiles,,is a person who wants to take you down......

you know what..i hate you! for being not so true, for being arrogant! i trusted you, you've did it to me once, and then you repeat it again.....sorry if i did something wrong, you know you can tell it to me and im open for correcting myself if im not doing any good.....but you didn't,, you just throw my trust from you.............and right now........evrything will be change.......sorry but you're not my friend anymore......sorry...because it hurts me so bad.........sorry because i cannot trust you anymore and sorry for hating you so much!!!!!

Anger Management!

again im here in my blog releasing what are my thoughts and feelings!!!

i hate people na yung ayaw gawin sa kanila eh ginagawa nila sa iba!

so stupid!! matalino ba talaga tong tao na to..ewan ko ba....gusto ko lang talaga ilabas ang sama ng loob ko!!

one thing i know....all she cares about is herself, and she doesn't even think kung maganda ba yung ginagawa nya o hindi...kung nakakatapak na ba sya ng kapwa nya o hindi......and one thing for sure!!!she's so plastic!!!!

dito ko na lang inilalabas, kaysa sa magaway pa...dito ko na lang sya aawayin kasi after nito marerealize ko na lang na hayan na lang sya sa ginagawa niya....sabi nga pag pumatol ka sa baliw, baliw ka na rin....

thread.....

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what is it a thread for me???

i have a friend...not just a friend she's almost a sister for me...

since we've begin to be close friends she was always there for me and im always there for her..

she is the one i always run to whenever i need a serious conversation about my problems...

why am i saying this?? because one of the thread in my life is gone...already cut by the faith....

and that thread is her.....i feel the same pain when my brother died 4 months ago...

i miss her so much...every time i think of her i always remember, she always told me that if im going to make a decision i should think not just twice but 100 times! that everything happens in our lives has a purpose...

whenever i feel so disturb she was always there to hear my pains, lahat na yata ng kababawan sa buhay ko alam niya....that's why i miss her so much... until now i cannot believe that this is happening, that she was gone and cant even see her or hear her advices.....i miss her so much... i miss everything in her....

khay, i know kahit na you cant give me advices anymore, i know you will guide me and lead me in the right way...you're one of the angels na...i will miss you so much...and you're in my heart forever...i love you my younger sister!!