5 years ago, I'm afraid to trust people because of some particular situation that happened to me..
i'm not the one who will tell you whats lurking on my mind, what was hurting me and other stuff....
and i changed..totally changed...by the help of my family and "FRIENDS"...i learned when to trust and when not to trust.....
its hard for me to trust other people because they might tell to others what i told to them...so i pick only those who i think that i can trust...and i did....but i found something.....i found something really really bad.....one of my trusted friends betrayed me........
that friend of mine is my friend since i was 12 years old, right now i'm 23 years old.....(count the years, do the math..)
i trusted him in every situation of my life i always telling him whats happening to me or whats bothering me....i trusted him so much to the point that i can tell everything without any doubt....but i failed.....5 years ago when im on the situation that i need a friend....he's there...i told him whats happening.....i trusted him my secrets.....but he dissapoints me..because he was the one who told everyone whats happening to me,,,i confront him i told him " kapag ikaw nagsasabi sakin na wag kong ipagsasabi ginagawa ko, kapag kailanagn mo ng magpapalam sa mama mo para payagan ka at wag kong sabihin ang totoo, ginagawa ko, pero bakit ako alm mo na masasaktan ako kasi sobrang halaga niya sakin, tapos ipinagkalat mo, bakit? and he replied " eh sa yun ang gusto ko eh! wag ka ngang umiyak ang babaw mo!"...............thats's the reply of a friend that i trusted with al my heart...then i did'nt talk to him....and he confronts me, he said sorry and i forgave him because he is my friend....and i treasure it.......but the friendship has a crack.....
and now he is doing it again, i found out that he tells everone, everything about me, ang baba pala ng tingin niya sa akin....and hndi ko alam yun, he told them that im insecure with him, but honestly not, im really happy for what he had now, and all success in his life because i feel im also part of his success because im his friend....and there's no way to feel insecure because i can be succesful in my own way.......he told them silly things, that below the belt...and i am so offended with that....with all the people i know i never thought that he was going to do that, that he will betray and insult me like that, when we see each other were ok...but the truth behind those smiles,,is a person who wants to take you down......
you know what..i hate you! for being not so true, for being arrogant! i trusted you, you've did it to me once, and then you repeat it again.....sorry if i did something wrong, you know you can tell it to me and im open for correcting myself if im not doing any good.....but you didn't,, you just throw my trust from you.............and right now........evrything will be change.......sorry but you're not my friend anymore......sorry...because it hurts me so bad.........sorry because i cannot trust you anymore and sorry for hating you so much!!!!!
